Sunday, November 22, 2009

We're Having a Baby GIRL!!!

Okay, so I have to tell you about my doctors appointment and my emotional reaction. I have to start by saying that every bone in my body, (almost) everyone I spoke with, and every old wives tell was telling me that I was having a baby boy. I truly believed I was and the sono was going to confirm that. So when she told me, "It's a girl," I just froze. I was absolutely in a state of shock. I was NOT mad, NOT upset, NOT disappointed, just in absolute shock.
Now, for those of you who are reading this and aren't close family members I should tell you, I grew up with brothers. I have never really been around little girls, never played barbie or dolls. I was always with boys, not girls. I have always worried that I wouldn't know what to do with a baby girl if I had one. I have also always had this fear that if Dustin and I had a little girl that Dustin would not be able to tell a crying little girl the word "No." She would have him wrapped around his finger (I still think this). I feared I would always be the bad guy, he would always be the good guy... she would love him and hate me b/c I was the one who told her "No." I realized that to many of you I now sound that like an irrational pregnant woman who is full of crazy hormones that makes her say stupid things, but I really did think these things. These were very REAL concerns for me.
So, when I was told "You're having a baby girl," I froze. Tears started pooling in my eyes. Dustin came over to hug me and I just lost it... I started balling. Again, I was shocked, and a little nervous about having a little girl.
When the doctor left the room I was finally able to look at my husband, and I don't think I have ever seen him so thrilled in my life. He was ecstatic, couldn’t be happier. Then he saw the worry in my eyes and asked me what was wrong. In my shocked, crazed, hormone-filled emotional state I blurted out, "She's going to love you and hate me... I don't know what to do with a little girl." He looked at me like I was absolutely crazy, and I must say, I don't blame him. Then he pretty much told me I was crazy, that he didn't know what to do with a little girl either but we would figure it out together.
It took me a few minutes but I realized that he was right, we would figure it out together and most importantly we will love her with all of our hearts. My initial shock quickly wore off and I must say, I’m very excited about having a little girl. I’m still a little worried that I’ll always be the bad guy, but much more than that I’m excited that we’re having a little girl. I look forward to all the cute dresses, earrings, dance class, the mother-daughter bond, and yes evening the dolls. Dustin could not be more excited about having a little girl. She might already have him wrapped around her finger.
We have decided to name her Maddison Lynn Mikes. We both really liked the name Maddison, and we’ll likely end up calling her Maddie for short… we’ll see. My Mom’s middle name is Lynn, and I wanted to have some part of my Mom’s name given to my daughter, so Lynn it was.
Here are some pictures of Maddison, she is 20 weeks and 2 days old in these pictures. Enjoy!
Oh, and if anyone out there has lots of experience raising little girls… I’m all ears ;)

1 comment:

  1. I couldn't help to giggle a little when I ready your reactions to having a girl! Don't you worry! You will be a great mom! :)

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